have no fear, blow up dolphin is here!

Whoever has been doing these 'meanwhile in floridas' caption photos after every ludicrous event that happens down here ... love it. Debby is still hangin' around, flooding (and forcing evacuations) in some areas... there's been a couple twisters and a death or two... but the wind has truly been a wild one. going to sleep at night, it makes me feel like there's a blizzard outside, because before this the strongest winds heard up north howling were accompanied by and resulted in several feet high snow dunes on the other side of the window pane. while it added a dash of excitement for a while, after what I guess will be (at the very most) a week of Miss Debby Bipolar (today for example: SUN! pouring rain. SUN! raaaain. SUN! uhhh...) I will be more than ready to say "au revoir" to this mess! 

"I read that we've had a record number of tropical storms already hit before the first month of the (Hurricane) season. Send my apologies for moving down here and bringing all this [hands gesturing around self] hot air...." (me to Chris.)

three rainy nights, see how they pour.

TROPICAL STORM DEBBY got tired of Dallas and decided to do the Gulf of Florida. it has been essentially pouring for almost three days, has been causing all sorts of mischief, and on top of it all, had to deal with my bank account almost being compromised by a scam. fraud knows no boundaries anymore... anyhow. been catching up on some reading, music, and movies... while making some friends who are having hard times far away laugh with silly stories and phone chats. Seems that right after dropping the holerats from my life, friends and acquaintances from the past with real problems emerged, who were seeking my help and consoling, which I have plenty to give. It becomes useless attempting to help and love those who will never love or listen to you in return properly, and will always carry animosity on their shoulder. No one bothers with the scapegoat once its wide eyed and far from the scene... but really, is the one benefiting from the bullshit. Never will I return to the previous area again, for no one truly grows, even from the most serious of situations. It is a place of misery and deceit, as is most places now it seems, but have gained an awareness that will keep me away from such buffoonery in the future, a new, improved compass to navigate me through this time period where justice and morality are practically non-existent. Live for you and in essence you will be helping others. You cannot allow yourself to forget you, and live just for others. If you think your life's quality is determined by how cool, hip, or how many people you have around in one given moment (or have 'done'.. bleck) well, uhm, instead of passively forgetting to let me know of that upon meeting me, really, don't bother. I'd rather just hang out with myself and my cat than be a conquest. Then again, I am apt to adore those who enjoy proving others wrong or challenging what they say. So, game on, Wayne. Game on, Garth.

big thank yous to the bank dudes on the phone for helping me not wake up tomorrow with $0 dollars.