Saturday, March 31, 2012

windshield into your soul.

paused the flick 'life in a day' at a really rando moment, called for a screenshot.

it rained today. my legs are killin' me.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

on cloud nine!

my new london gentleman

adopted a one year old kittercat from the pinellas humane society, pre-named 'Maverick' (which takes me back to watching the 2008 debates with friends and laughing our asses off while taking a drink every time the repubs would utter 'maverick'.. anyways..) got used to our apartment really fast, not even an hour later he was all sprawled out and comfy. apparently he was found by a good Samaritan in downtown Dunedin, had a bite wound and abscess on his cheek that got fixed up, went into the shelter two weeks ago, gave him all his shots and is 'dejunked' - $25 dollar adoption fee, and they gave us a bag of food and treats. only downside: the decent deposit fee i'll be paying to the landlady. already had bought all his goodies before the adoption, he's had some catnip :) think he's going to be catching up on a lot of sleep (doesn't have to share a space with five other cats anymore! not to mention the ladycat who swiped him right in front of me. gave her a very stern scolding.)
(had fun saturating the photo, makes his lil nose all vibrant!)

Monday, March 26, 2012

sunburned, yet stoic.

apparently the party scene of the movie that had accepted me to be an extra for, was a teens wet dream. upon discovering this, i thought back to something that had previously scrolled through my brain like one of those old electric signs teachers could program with announcements in rainbow colors and 8-bit fireworks at the end... well it was: "It might suck." got to read a, cough, 'brilliant review' from a high schooler who had been chosen and attended, and she and all 70 girls refused the producer's (who's previous work includes a flick entitled... Trash Humpers) first question, which was, "would any of you girls be comfortable with making out with each other?" I mean, while there would be the potential possibility with some form of sedation involved maybe I would have (oh no, shit, drug free environment while simulating use of drugs? oh coooool, guys!) It was the way in which she wrote "oh my god we were brushing booties with the disney girls and singing and dancing" (not verbatim) for 10-14 hours in the sun? the reason it didn't happen was because I had work, (they send you the time the night before) the electric message in my came up in the exploding individual letter mode, and bad journalism and pukey modern teen spirit hath defeated thee.... for now.

morale is subpar, hopefully it gets better with my story pitch to someone, and while most of it was written last night (and was really the first night in forever I sat there attempting to duke something out) chris thankfully reminded me to take my time and revise it ... now I'm gonna finish my pink lemonade and curl up under the down comforter.

one thing that is bugging me: salacious banter.
can I ever feel completely positive about anything?

oh, and i've been playing the monkees albums over and over on my ipod at work, have to gauge when i feel like i can get away with it, which is usually when i'm with little sue. seriously, 'gonna buy me a dog' makes me so happy and lighthearted... every time i hear davy i get all screwed up inside. we will love him forever.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

people are so strange and so complicated that they're actually beautiful.

possibly even me.

cross at the green not in between

death and dying

had a dying dream last night. chris had the car on cruise control and it suddenly stopped working, and since he wasn't paying attention, my hands went on the wheel and i tried my best - then he started freaking out on me that i didn't know what i was doing which made me more panicked so i lost control and we smashed into a giant truck and then everything went black. woke up surprised to be alive. ive only really had maybe... two dying dreams before that, in my life.
some people need to trust me more in my actions. i'm tired of people who butt in and tell me i'm not doing it right. look where it gets you.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Diving into the trash barrel of the lost and forgotten...

"See there's thinking about him, right? Which is what I do... all the time, like this obsession. It keeps me going or something, like I need it just to get through the day." 'It's an obsession.' "Right... and if you make it real? It's not the same. It's not yours anymore. I don't know, maybe I'd rather have a fantasy than even him." (Angela from My So-Called Life)

Yeah, the mere second episode of MSCL describes the fantasyland of fall '09 to mid '10. I'm glad it stayed that way. It's really fascinating to like someone you know so little about so much, that you cannot form actual sentences around them, so they in turn think you're just crazy... and then it fwaps you in the head, realizing you wasted tons of beautiful, lovely energy on a dolthead. which in my opinion, is far, far lower on the chain then 'crazy.' it's been celebrated on the top lately, and having watched Stir Crazy recently, I will gleefully concur that yes, I am crazy. and it is a beautiful thing.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Monday, March 19, 2012

philistines.... *shake fist*

my writer mentor: well, maybe you're destined for bigger things? I mean, I felt like you 20 years ago and my new job (which is leading to some really cool things) is proof that I was right. The other people were philistines.

Honestly. I am NOT dealing with peoples crap anymore. stay away from me and your asinine bullshittery. SHAPE up as an individual and do EQUAL the work of your fellow brother and sister. Stop taking advantage of people who are nice, they DEAL with your bullshit and don't say half of what they really want to say to you because you're so JADED. and dudes, us women DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR MOTHERS.

Considering my own place soon so I can focus on what I really need to do, for myself. End of story.

every itchy & scratchy ep!

48 glorious minutes worth, my dears.

finely tune that innate idealism

best advice yet: "Use your common sense even about ideals, and above all, deal with the real world as it is, not as you would like it to be. You can work to make it what you want, but don't assume that it already is."

beach party scene

going to be an extra in the most recent harmony korine film, spring breakers on wednesday! kinda kraykray.

Sunday, March 18, 2012


Just a kind word
This influence makes you think a great deal about your relationships to others, not in unhappy terms, but quite positively. You are much more willing to give up what you normally consider your inalienable rights for the sake of maintaining peace and harmony. You are in a compromising mood and feel that few problems are important enough to warrant fighting over. Obviously this has its bad and good side, but for most people this influence has a very cheering and positive effect. You want to do what you can to help anyone who is having problems, even if it is just a kind word. Unfortunately, if you are alone now you will want very much to be with someone. Therefore this influence can actually signify a time of loneliness, if for some reason you have to remain alone. 

Yeah, Chris just left for work, and gave him a very sad looking sendoff. Here I am, unable to stop reading articles on income inequality. Feeling a generalized sympathy for all who would love to spend more time with their loved ones, but gotta go feed the wolves in order to attain your own. (food, that is.) mehhhhhhhhhhh....

for one moment, i wish you'd hold your stage.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

annexed, yet resonated around the world.

"We all live with the objective of being happy: 
our lives are different and yet the same."
Anne Frank

Thursday, March 15, 2012

now i'm lost!#%$

deciding what mischief shall be
embarked upon on our coveted day off..

(pictures will be up on here soon from exploration of new port richey. PROMISE...)

Saturday, March 10, 2012


for my buddies up north being all willynillysilly on the weekend before st. pattys day:

Friday, March 9, 2012

Vacation Schedz

May 17th, Thursday: arrive in New England, Dad's
May 18th & 19th: possibly hanging out in Noho, might only be Saturday, but if enough people would like to get together, both days would be awesome.
May 20-22nd (Sun through Tues) at Dad's until departure, or TBA, if anyone wants to claim me for a while!

(I know New England friends look at this, so LET ME KNOW what's good for you.)

To make this not so bland, here's a song I've always loved:

Thursday, March 8, 2012

cruisin' to abba

is what chris and i have been doing, listening to their whole collection...

simba-ROO, i love youuuuu!!!!

simba's health seems to be rapidly declining, saw him a week or so ago and he seemed well after apparently having went to a dog beach the day prior, but my mom said she's watching him like a hawk because she's worried it's been getting worse since then. since i left my moms house, i've found myself worrying about him... even in my dreams. i love my grumpy old man and i don't want him to go... and now i have to stop writing this because it's making me cry. instead of crying, i will post some of my favorite silly pictures of simba and i from 2007.

the goof troop

we share juicy secrets.

friendship bone

this was a week ago. iloveyoubabyboi. <3

Sunday, March 4, 2012

needed to hear this one.

For the benefit of all
This can be a very pleasant time, although it is not very good for getting things done. You are more likely to spend time in fantasy and daydreams than in working in the everyday world. But if you are involved in any creative activity that has to develop completely inside your mind before taking physical form, this is an extremely useful influence. At its highest, it enables you to deal with people with great compassion and tenderness. In your close relationships you act for the benefit of all concerned, not only to satisfy your own needs and desires. A relationship that begins during this time has the double potential of being very spiritual or insubstantial and illusory. Time will show you whether it is a real spiritual relationship between "soul-mates" or just a delusion to that effect.

planet earth is blue and there is nothing i can do

oh, no bigs, it's jus' my new car. (not really...)

glory, glory hallelujah!


ohhhh d-d-dear...

my new 'upstanding' girlfriend

proper 'molestation' was unfortunately not conceived
due to Poseidon's trident being in the way of his junk.

answering nature's urgent call:

will do, superior ultimate lady of the skies.

doctor doctor, give me the news

bought my own ticket home to see my pa & friends, will be in new england may 17th through the 22nd. mucho excited! i've been bottling up a lot of energy down here without being around friends to talk to... so chances are i will be crazy happy high on life for the entire five days! :D